March 24, 2006 - 10:06 am

i got into a fight with my supervisor a few days ago. a big, angry screaming match in front of the team and EVERYONE heard it. it was oh so petty, which made it even more humiliating.

we were organising a team drinks/dinner. a few people wanted to do it at someone's house, the others wanted to have it out somewhere. so i said, fine, i'll put it to a vote. so the votes came in, the supervisor voted to have it at home while most of the team voted to have it out at a restaurant. i sent an email advising what the majority had decided, which was the restaurant.

as soon as i sent the email, she said, "well, i won't be going."

and i, being exhausted from work and really just fucking hating the place at the moment, demanded to know why. then i called her a child because she wasn't getting her own way.

later on, after that had died down, she caught me saying to someone else, "she can't come because she can't afford to spend time with us." so she yelled "shut up, penny!" and i thought for a moment she was going to belt me. haha. christ! anyway we started yelling at each other again, i told her she was being ridiculous and to grow up - and she said "why don't YOU grow up!!" which i think was when i realized this was a pointless argument and i told her to leave me alone.

i was pretty mortified when i came home the night of because really, i'd acted like an idiot and completely lost my temper. it's only funny now because people have come up to me and said that i was in the right and they also thought it was hilarious to see someone put her in her place. most of the team are now ignoring her, despite the fact that the supervisor and i are fine with each other again and are on normal talking terms.

i can't help but feel a little satisfaction.

especially since the next day, everyone was gossiping about it like crazy. i love drama. i can't help it. i love reading about it, watching it, being a part of it.

i'm married to someone that hates it, so the drama i might try to create usually doesn't work. i say usually, because of course, there are sometimes i succeed in provoking a fight. i always regret it, but the drama still thrills a part of me.

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