August 12, 2006 - 9:32 am i just got a message from my mental friend saying "hi, i didn't make a waxing appointment. i don't want u or scott in the wedding anymore either." i suppose i should be grateful, but it's things like this that stir up my desire for confrontation. what i should be doing is letting the friendship go without a second thought. my brain doesn't work very well on letting go. as a perfect example, take my relationship with scott. i spent a year not talking to him and still ended up pursuing him, even when he was a dick right up until i left. i'm stubborn. i like things to end on my terms. so this is irritating me. i don't know what's going to happen. i'm trying to stay strong and keep from calling her to try to rectify the relationship so i can destroy it. because that's all i want to do! i just want to be the winner. i want the last word! it's not very healthy. i'm not even really upset about the friendship because she had become such a fucking drama that every time she called, i couldn't help but roll my eyes. scott said he thought it would happen eventually. i can't lie though, my ego is a little brusied. being dumped is always a little painful. well, i'm off to do some retail therapy to make myself feel better.
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