March 25, 2007 - 8:13 am ok! so i have started a new eating program. one day in, i can't stop obsessing about food. i always do though, so that's no different... it's just usually i get what i want. it's very controlled because i've discovered i'm somewhat a compulsive over eater. i started to track how much food i was eating without thinking about it, how much i was eating when i wasn't hungry... it was frightening. i was having close to 4-5 full meals a day. i would obsess about eating more and more, too. plan ways to start eating by myself so no one would see. i would bake things at night just as an excuse to eat more. so, it was very unhealthy. i have cut out potatoes and pasta (which tend to be trigger foods for me to just keep eating more and more, even though i'm sickly full) but i have left in wholemeal bread (or wholewheat as it is in the US) and brown rice because i can eat a normal serving and not be dying to eat something else. but the main focus is to stay under a certain amount of calories and make sure i go to the gym. i have to keep remembering, one day at a time and each day makes a difference. when really, i want to suck down a cheeseburger and fries and be done with it. heh.
|
|
