May 10, 2007 - 7:57 pm i busted some serious ass at the gym tonight. i feel good. i have felt so negative in the past, but today all i could hear in my head was, "keep going, you can do this, YOU CAN DO THIS!" all excited like. it was a little amazing. i spoke with john for a long time about his work. then realized the conversation was utterly useless. he refuses to listen! lately he seems to have absorbed at least some of what i say. but it's taken twelve years to get here. twleve fucking years of insisting that i'm always right. that's tiring! i suspect he must have reached his quota for my wise and sensible counsel because i could tell it was all disappearing out of that tiny pinhead of his. twelve years with john. how did that happen? oh yeah, we rule. if anyone is curious, my jaw opens a fraction more than it did. apparently i don't have lockjaw. that's good news i suppose, but it's still giving me a lot of pain. more pain than a really long blow job. that's annoying. i am dreading going back to my dressmaking class. truly, one of the worst ideas i have ever had. i could have bought a pair of boots instead. they would have made me a lot happier. instead i've paid to sit in a hot sweaty room with a bunch of old ladies every saturday for two hours for the next six weeks. seriously, kill me.
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